They pleaded with God to take their life from them. Am actually shedding tears as I read this because I understand what everyone is feeling. . My parents always yell at me for that. I feel excruciatingly sad and beaten. She says she loves me but she's so selfish, and I absolutely hate her. Desperate for love and effection i allowed things to happen to me.
If you have a mortgage then yes, you may lose your house — but far better to deal with it yourself than have your choices taken away. Its like my brain is telling me nobody likes me, and that killing myself will be the easiest way out. That humiliation kept me alive. It's like I'm the bad daughter, even though I'm the eldest. I am sorry for being ugly. I don't drive so travel on public transport to the city 12 miles away.
Well it turns out that it was just 4 more years of crap. It all seems like my family and friends everyone arounds me seems like they hate me. You and your family are in our thoughts. My boyfriend 16 killed himself when his parents moved him out of state. I get no treatment, but I do get a large bill in the mail! If you are hiding what it is going on or claiming it is okay verbally even when things are not then nobody is responsible for not helping you except you. This time of the year can highlight sadness in our lives.
Waking up every morning gives me exactly the same pain which we get when someone shoots us!!! I hate my self I hate my life. How well did I play the hand I was dealt? I honestly just need to type this out. Keep up the hard work. The answer is to do more things to ease your lonliness, how about volunteer work? Every day I live, feels like a proof, that my love is not real. We need smart people with perspective to keep the world turning. That ways, I'd at least have more freedom.
She turns only 19 tomorrow. She's like the perfect child. I dont want to go through therapy again and just revert it all back to square one again with regressing back to suicidal tedencies. I am so sorry that you are in so much pain. Play a game — There are many types of games you could play including: board games, sports, Nintendo, Xbox, poker, etc. Even during the brief couple years that I felt happy I wanted to just take off. I seem to be a burden even though I have helped so many.
My job is a joke, My money management skills leave much to be desired. Did I stand up to the bullies in life or cower down and watch them bully me or others? If you can, look at photos to help you remember what was important to you in life. Movies — Movies are a great distraction when you are feeling suicidal and distressed. This is essentially a promise that you vow to keep that you will not commit suicide. I am tired of going threw the daily struggles of having nobody who cares or cares enuff to try to understand anyway. Do you have any advice? I have never found love, or felt it. The writer of Hebrews also discusses the same concept.
The distinction may be a fine one but it is fundamental — for it is only when we are alive that we can express what is important to us and make our wishes and values known. I am moving next year, to a nearby school 10 mins away from my current school , but I don't think that's going to be much of a 'new life' for me. My mind is always noisy, the thoughts never stop. I chose a vegatarian restaurant in the daytime and everybody loved it. Go and see a doctor and get some meds and get better and you will definitely see things in a different light. So, thanks for that, although I know that was not your intention. She told me how to win without making a permanent decision to end a temporary problem.
You might be able to breathe easier if you raise your upper body using a wedge or an adjustable bed. I realize you posted to talk to Jack however I am in the same boat as both of you. They are rich and own multiple houses, and my grandfather has Parkinson's, so they can't really come down to the shore anymore. Seems like you know just how to motivate me. I wish there was something I could do or say to ease your unhappiness. Been really down lately, as well.
I think that comedy type movies tend to be most beneficial for those who are suicidal. If your life sucks, end it — not by killing yourself but by walking away. My kids are grown and live 200 plus miles away. You must share it with your therapist, psychologist, family or all of the above and sign it. Steve Pavlina , books, and audio tapes i. How can you be surrounded around people and feel invisible.